1:59 and heartaches.
Sunday, November 22, 2009


2PM~ is back with 1:59 (their latest album; released on 10.11.09) and whoa. Nice cover. Something short, muscly, witty, funny, weird, talented, built and just so damn freaking hot missing? Well, I think everyone notices that. I mean, that is why at the MAMA on 21.11.09, they K-Hottests wore Mickey Mouse ears with Jay ♡ Bum and have banners that read Ba Jaebum because the man demands it.

2PM won Best Male Group and Artist of The Year which they fairly deserve but come to think of it, Super Junior is a little bit more successful this year, no? Whatever. Anyways, I'm proud of them for mentioning Jay straightforwardly and not be coy about it and I love Taec's little speech. He made it sound so painfully OK. When Junsu said 'mori', I knew he said thanks to the hairstylist and I began to giggle but when he said 'keu saram', I knew he meant Jay and I felt really relieved. And I understood a little on TV and when I saw Wooyoung crying everytime Jay's name was being spoken, I feel so happy. Even Changsung's speech can make me cry. It is so bittersweet. Don't ask why I'm happy, I just am. Congrats to them : D BTW, 2 hours later, there's a subbed video on their speeches that I so rave about.

I watched the video on Youtube and I noticed that they put Again & Again picture and I couldn't help noticing Jay in the middle. Short and muscly. Uri Leader : D

Best Male Group.


Artist of The Year.


TVXQ won Asia Star Award and as expected the SM boys did not appear. Instead of the duo, the three of soon-to-be-ex-SM-ers came up looking anything but happy. I'm proud of them for coming eventhough after that SM was all 'they don't deserve that' and I went 'what? are they not TVXQ? are they Big Bang or something? are they Wondergirls that they don't deserve to receive the award that was meant for TVXQ?' Their speech was nothing but heartfelt especially Hero's at the end when he said 'the two other person who might be watching this; I love you', my heart just went out for them.

Asia Star Award.


2PM Heartbeat and Again & Again.


In the performance, maybe the spotlight appeared too early, maybe the spotlight was meant to be there but that spotlight is where Jay was supposed to stand. And yeah, cheap publicity as it is, I was expecting Jay to come bouncing and when the stage behind 2PM rose, I was expecting Jay and imagine my disappointment when it's JYP trying to be Outsider AND Taec. Anyway, the performance was OK. No acrobatics, though.

And MAMA 2009 have NO trot at all. No trot at all. KhunIvy action was as intriguing as HyoriTop action last year. SNSD did not win anything eventhough they were the bigest girl act this year. Drunken Tiger instead of GD won so I'm so, so happy especially when he said 'my love, Yoon Mirae!'. Outsider did not win anything either but I'm happy whith Leessang winning. My predictions was pretty good especially about the SM not winning thing.

Anyways, Jay on Seattle News 29.09.09.


TVXQ rumoured next year's Japanese single; Break Out 15 seconds preview.



credits; time2sub2, CodeMonmonSeason5, JJLover07 and dirah9305 on Youtube.

Current Location: underneath my cat, Hitam.
Current Mood: bittersweet : D
Current Music: Jet- Seventeen

of the year's disappointments part 1; MAMA 09
Thursday, November 19, 2009


eye candy of the month, Jonghun : D

MKMF 2008 was a blast ain't it, as i recall? Lee Hyori, Big Bang, Wondergirls, DBSK and all its glory but much to my disappointment; they changed their name and have been boycotted by Inwoo Ent., SME and you just wouldn't admit it! DSPE. Oh, and poor publicity; We Want To Invite Jaebeom from America?! WTF.

As of usual, the nominees list (this post were actually intended to be posted like, on 25 Oct (?) but it just slipped my mind and now it's 2 days away and I barely am excited =.=)

*Coloured texts are my choice : D
** Italic texts are who's going to win + what I think.

Newcomer (Male)
BEAST
Supreme Team
MBLAQ
ChungRim
TaeGoon Rain 2.0 remember?

Newcomer (Female)
2NE1 obvie, winners
After School
T-ara
4Minute
f(x)

Male singer
Drunken Tiger
Rain
Lee Seung Chul
GDragon definitely a champ =.=
MC Mong

Female singer
Bada
Baek Ji Young another obvious win thanks to Taec
Son DamBi
YoonHa
ChaeYeon

Male Group
2PM
Big Bang
Super Junior most def, a winner
SG Wannabe
SS501

Female Group
Davichi
Brown Eyed Girls
So Nyeo Shi Dae WINNER!
Jewelry
KARA

Mixed Group
Roo’Ra
8eight it's either them or Clazziquai
Koyote
Cool
Clazziquai

Rock Music Award
BuHwal (생각이나) duh?
Seo Taiji (Juliet)
Jang GiHa and the Faces (Living with no special things)
Cherry Filter (Pianissimo)
FT Island (I Hope) these lads might have a chance, too. hmm..

Hip hop music award
Dynamic Duo (Dead Guy)
Drunken Tiger (Monster)
LeeSsang (헤어지지 못하는 여자, 떠나가지 못하는 남자)
Outsider (Alone) Fastest rapper in S. Korea?
Epik High (Wannabe)

Ballad/R&B music award
Kim Jong Kook (Today More Than Yesterday)
Kim TaeWoo (Love Rain) ex- H.O.T
Bobby Kim (Love, the guy)
Park Hyo Shin (After Love)
Baek Ji Young (Like being Hit)

Dance music award
2NE1 (I Don’t Care)
2PM (Again & Again)
So Nyeo Shi Dae (Gee)
Super Junior (Sorry, Sorry) DUH! or Again & Again?
KARA (Honey)

House& Electronic music award
Brown Eyed Girls (Abracadabra) can't you see it?
Son DamBi (Saturday Night)
Clazziquai (Love Again)
4Minute (Muzik)
GDragon (Heartbreaker)

Trot Music Award
Gyeon Miri (Happy Woman)
Park Hyun Bin (Brilliant Life)
Seong JinYoo (딱이야)
Joo HyunMi and SeoHyun (JjaRaJaJjan)
Hong JinYeong (Love’s Battery) sticks at your head like UHU!

O.S.T Award
Baek Ji Young (Don’t Forget – IRIS)
Lee Seung Chul (No more love like this – Blue Love Story)
T-Max (Paradise – Boys Over Flowers)
Tiffany (I’m Along – JaMyungGo)
SS501 (Because I’m Stupid – Boys Over Flowers) BOF fame *rolls eyes*

Best MV
2NE1 (Fire)
LeeSsang (헤어지지 못하는 여자, 떠나가지 못하는 남자) Lee Hyori = Definite Win
Bada (Mad)
Seo Taiji (Juliet)
D.N.G (Step 2 Me)

MV Director
Seo HyunSeung
Jang JaeHyuk
Jo SooHyun Directs Indian Boy, La Cha Ta and Gee. need to say more?
Joo HeeSeon
Hong WonKi

Mobile Ranking Choice Award
1. SNSD - Gee it's at the top of the chart, that's why!
2. Super Junior - Sorry Sorry
3. SS501 - Because I'm Stupid
4. Big Bang - Gara Gara GO!!
5. 2PM - Again and Again
6. G-Dragon - Heartbreaker
7. 2NE1 - I Don't Care
8. Rain - Rainism
9. Kara - Honey
10. MBLAQ - Oh Yeah!

Artist of the Year Award
1. Super Junior 13 hot boys =.=
2. SS501
3. SNSD
4. G-Dragon
5. Big Bang
6. 2PM
7. 2NE1
8. Chae Yeon
9. Rain
10. Kara

Music Track of the Year Award
1. Super Junior - Sorry Sorry DUH, DUH, DUH.
2. G-Dragon - Heartbreaker
3. SNSD - Gee
4. Kara - Honey
5. 2PM - Again and Again
6. 2NE1 - I Don't Care
7. Brown Eyed Girls - Abracadabra
8. FT Island - I Hope
9. Kim Taewoo - Love Rain
10. Park Hyo Shin (After Love)

Anyone sees something odd? SHINee? Juliette and Ring Ding Dong? Lee Seung Ki? Will You Marry Me and Let's Break Up? Both are extremely active this year and are not present in any of the awards? Big Shock, is it not? MAMA 2009 is something to be missed with no SM-ers who are extremely active this year. No DSP-ers. KARA is very cute, after all! And no Kim Hyunbin T_T That is just to my disappointment only, though. BTW, where is Gondeure Mandeure?!

If Suju or SNSD did not win, I am willing to bet 3, 000, 000, 000 won that Mnet is cheating. And YG rules this year's awards, I bet. Icing on the cake is that it will be aired on Channel V; live, I suppose. Aside from that, can't wait end of the year's Song Festival!

Current Location: in dreamland where I'm married to Jonghun of FTI
Current Mood: okay ...
Current Music: FT Island- Lie

p/s latest music; FTI's 3rd Repackage; Double Date. happy happy : D Oh, I finally downloaded Snakes & Earrings!

credits; primanoona.com, K BITES and so much more : D

over the freaking cliff?
Sunday, November 15, 2009

Worst holiday ever. Three words to sum up all the days I've stayed out of school. Listened to All Time Low's Toxic Valentine on loop had to be the highlight of my day. And it's like 12:06. And I am so, so, so fucking depressed. It's like one of those days when you wake up too late and the sun's shining waaay too bright and it is so, so dry that whatever you do is just so wrong except for when you hit the waters. That's how I felt today and every other day because it just sucked.

The only day that was interesting enough to make me exert Endorphin was the day we went to take our textbooks and that was only because it was so damn shitty that it's funny. So, depressed that I am, I cried while watching 2PM's Heartbeat the first time I watched it. It was not because Jay is not there or anything, obvie. It's just that things are so fucking rough that I snapped but it was like a 5 seconds thing because then I cracked up listening to Chansung's voice.

I snapped and I cracked. That was the oddest 5 seconds I have ever been through.

ANYfreakingWAYS, Raya Haji is coming back and everyone's coming home so I crossing my fingers real tight that it will cheer me up at least a little bit. After all, my dad's jokes have always been wryly funny and kakakku (kakak!) is taking me to watch New Moon because I told her to. Nahh, because ... I told her to? Anyways, what else is going to cheer me up even if it for mere 120 minutes if not Edward Cullen's sexy golden eyes?

AND (I love my dorky and long and absurdly endless ands) if I'm feeling like it, I might post pictures on my trip to Sg. Buloh last week and Raya 09 photos. Till then ...

Anyway, if the Happening -the weird film by M. Night Shyamalan (?) starring Mark Wahlber and Zooey Deschanel (!)- ever happens around here, guess which place is going to die first?

My sister says SUNGAI BULOH! cuz it's crawling with people and Trees!

Current Location: enveloped in moodiness?
Current Mood: dep -halfway there- ressesd
Current Music: 2PM- Heartbeat (Red Light Mix)

p/s I personally think that the Red Light Mix is so much better and upbeat than the original one. And I Hate You (Lounge Mix) sounds like Chae Yeon's Shake so much that I suspect DJ Koo mixed it. I was Crazy Over You is the best track. Album review when I'm not busy?

Eyeliners and Faggots
Saturday, November 7, 2009

Hven't blogged for a while. ~ Feeling a bit lame and boring these days but that's how life is supposed to go on. Passing like breeze. That is crap.

Any much to the ways, I got in contact with my cousin and knowing me, that's like HOLY BANANAS! I mean I'm not much of a family person and heyho I barely talk to my cousins unless I'm getting on real well. Anyways, I was on MySpace (surprisingly, a lot of people is still on ms. I thought everyone is getting Facebooky) and I mailed her, you know; ADD ME cuz I'm your pathetic cousin.

And the response is ; Naqief tanya suka makan pau ke?

That's like my other cousin whose 10 and is so skinny. He says that all the food he eats goes to his HUGE AS MY ASS buckteeth (there's 2). Well, whatever. And him with his wry humour goes 'Do I like to eat pau?' because my MySpace name is eizzathepoww and I'm like hullo Smarties. But still whatever. I'm just so proud that I'm in touch with my cousin, for social butterfly I am not.

Hwantastic Project Vol. 2 is out featuring Whale and Jo Kwon! Whale is of course my favourite : D and Jo Kwon is just so HOT. It's called Dunk Shoot, understand I did not. The song is extremely catchy at the spell part. Lee Seung Hwan is such a talented person!

yabalabahigiyamo haimamohairura!



OMG, my teacher; AFIQ just signed in. Yo whoa~ man, it has been so, so, so long since I cracked and said "My god, girl school is so lesbo" and he freaked out. BOYSCOUT! =.=

Eyeliners and Faggots is this new project I'm involved in. It's literary, of course. What else could I possibly be doing this holiday. Of course, this is not what my mom had in mind. She had a Tahfiz Camp in mind and I'm like whoa. 2 weeks. No MGMT? No the Pigeon Detectives? Ouchie. And I got out of that, DUH eventhough everyone is like, 'then what else you wnna do?' and I'm all 'crap around and produce shit.'

Back to Eyeliners and Faggots, this literary project is between me and Syaza; she's the co-writer or whatever. It's a band story and I think that it's gonna suck but it's just a ahort story thing. Nothing long and complicated. Maybe, I'll post it here or something for feedback and work on it, I don't know.

Anyways, I watched Jennifer's Body and hello, OVERRATED. It wasn't that good in terms of gore because she wasn't very brutal and it was not very visual but linewise, it was hell of a a script. And Michael Cera just got replaced in my cute-dork-who-is-totally-cool character. He was replaced by none other than Johnny Simmons who was so witty in the movie. Adam Brody does not look like Adam Brody at all. I mean, what I had in mind is the O.C Adam Brody; all curly hair and clean-cut but he was stubbly and rock god-ish that it surprises me. In the end of the movie, I was like 'Where the hell is Adam Brody?' and the credits rolled in and his Nikolai, the rock god. The soundtrack was so, so, so cool. Like Juno and 500 Days of Summer cool.

The movie was nonetheless entertaining but not up to par. And seriously, Jennifer and Needy are SO not platonic. : D

I finally found my soundtrack. She & Him version of Please, Please, Please Let Me Get What I Want.

A few cool things are happening. East of Eden is on TV! IRIS will be on tv and so is Project Runway. Scream Queen ended; that's bad though and Running in Heels in about to end but they put the reruns of Stylista! But you know what I really need.

Someone to screen Closer and Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist in TV. Closer is a movie that stars Jude Law, Clive Owen, Julia Roberts and Natalie Portman. I never got to watch it till the end and I really, really, really like the movie. I don't know much about Nick and Norah but it stars Michael Cera and Kat Dennings, has rave reviews and a fantastic soundtrack. Oh, and 500 Days of Summer to come back : (

Current Location: hiding in a cave of weirdness
Current Mood: blank
Current Music: Low Shoulder- Through The Trees (the song exists!)

eighteen is like whoooosh
Monday, October 12, 2009

whole post dedicated to WAN cause the MAN demands it.

omigod, sherwan. YOU ARE 18! Boy, did you grow fast, haha. LOL. Sorry I couldn't attend your party as explained on the phone cause of unavoidable circumstances like no transport.

Lyana would say 'damn lah wei!'

But I can't believe I missed your 18th birthday! Omigod, gee. Why did you have to make it all far away and on a Monday night too. Gahh! Anyways, I wish you Happy 18th Birthday, I know you love being all legit and all that but you're still a child at heart. I LOVE you, Ahmad Muzaffar Sherwan! Haha. Future girlfriend of Wan, do NOT kill me. BTW, you so have to take me for a spin in your secondhand cheap Toyota brand new Toyota because I would love to die in a Toyota next to you, listening to Regina Spektor blasting in my ear.

Oh, I might attend your 20th birthday though just because the big 2-0 means that you are an adult oh and that's like two digits that do not begin with one. : D

happy birthday ahmadmuzaffarsherWAN!


Current Location: Mlysia, iloveyoubutyou'rebringingmedown : (
Current Mood: happy+disappointed+lovelorn+impressed
Current Music: Meaghan Smith- Here Comes Your Man

Why aren't you guys back yet?!

안돼요 내 사랑
Tuesday, September 15, 2009

My English teacher reeks. yeahiusedthewordreeks. She reeks. Why does the oral has to be this week? oral sounds like fcking teeth check. Like this week. wth. Where is the spirit of raya? Where is her compassion towards her sleep-deprived students? Oh, and I have to write the goddamned script. yeahhyougotthatright,misslazyupherarsesleeping10hoursaday. Me. Moi. Na. Saya. Yeahh, SAYA. whatthethingamajig? me. And right now, riiiiiiiight NOW, the script is a series of ohmygodicannotdothisgoddamnedscriptfuckwherehasthepapergoneshitihavenoideasohmigoddihavenofreakingtime. like what the hell. WHAT is your problem? Can't you delay it? Don't you see that I'm not sleeping now? Can't YOU see that? Can't you see that I'm missing hours of sleep?

OHH, and the internet sucked. BAD. But it's becoming better. scyahrightit'sgettingbetter. I just CAN'T wait for the holidays to kick in so that I can get hours and hours and hours okay I don't sleep that much of sleep and me time. ME TIME. Exactly what I need and everyone agrees too. And what am I doing here instead of having the STUDYING FRENZY? Procrastinating and venting out all the pent up shit.

SHIT. 3 hours left and I haven't finished yet. But at least I'm making progress. Did you know that I'm only four days away from my dream holiday? All the sleeping and all? I haven't been soooooo sleep-deprived since I was born. hello, out of topic.

so totally inspired by 8eight's Goodbye, My Love. The lyrics and the clip are amazing and absurdly touching.

몸이 멀어지면 마음도 멀어진단 말 하나도 내겐 소
They say if bodies separate, hearts separate too




Current Location: hard, cold chair
Current Mood: like shit
Current Music: 8eight- Goodbye, My Love. what's life if not touche?

심장병 Heartache
Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Recently, I've been listening to Heartache by what I think few of the best performers in Korea which is MC Sniper (Outsider's mentor), Outsider (fastest rapper in S.Korea) & Horan (member of Clazziquai and Ibadi).

메마른 영혼을 적시는 바람
The wind softly soaking the dry soul

It explains the feel of the love he had for her.

The song is just fantastic! Horan's voice is so beautiful mixed with Outsider's soft yet fast rap and MC Sniper's smooth gangster-like flow. They just make the best trio ever. Best K-rap of the year?

Hwantastic Project is definitely fantastic.

one thing's for sure. Wild Bunny is postponed. T.T -Taek, Wooyoung & Jay-

Jay is leaving 2PM. whoa. I just dropped the bombshell as easy as that. no long 'so's and 'and's. I'm impressed. As much as the decision was fully his', part of the blame goes to the 3000 people who filed for the 'Jay Park should commit suicide' petition. Will he be the next Yoo Seung Joon who is now Steve Yoo or Michelle Wie (you know, pro golfer)? So hey, Jay, oppa, come baaaaaack! live a good life, eh? What would 2PM be without their Jay-leadja? The one who is always in the middle cuz he's so short but also because he's the leader and also one of the talented voices in the group. I sure hope that Junho (one of the shortest also) is not replacing him and that he'll come back. Oh, 2PM! Do not perform at the Dream Concert unless you've Jay with ya!

KBSW viewers in Malaysia always know that almost all the shows that are subbed are usually almost a month late. The news are very updated though. It seems so odd that the issues now are like a month away and the issues then are the ones aired today like Choi Jinsil's urn being returned back & TVXQ's lawsuit which are ages ago. Odd is that Kang Hye Jung's pregnancy has not yet been announced nor have Tablo's future marriage. It's just so, so, so odd that I already that beforehand that it feels like the news is predictable except for that it's not.

Current Location: on my kick-ass futon!
Current Mood: reminiscing grieving quite okay, no?
Current Music: 2PM- I Might Come Back touche, indeed

the girl stuck in adolescence

i'm an about to be fourteen year old who spends too much time on the computer laughing my ass off watching hot boys beasts making fun of themselves and collecting eyebags. i'm collecting eyebags not the hot boys. i'm also a self-centered, annoying girl who is a disgrace to planet Earth. i laugh way too much for my own good and stays silent for too long at times when i run out of things to say or just having nothing to say except for things that would anger some. because it my goddamned hobby. i'm running out of humans because i keep making random things that pisses them off so much that all the humans around me has turned into humanoids.


who i am linked to

Ajim| Arisha| Chian Wei | Chui Pin| Dylan| Faie| Florence| Hui Ying| Inas| Jia Jun| Jolynn| Jolynn 2| Lini| May Yean | May Yean 2| Nadrah| Nadyra| Park| Pei Jin| Pn Chong| Sofea| Syaz| Wei Teng| Yi Jun| Yune Yuen| Yvonne|


class blogs
2 B; too bisingians
2 C; two cekapians
2 F; two fasihians
2 L; too luhur

what happened before

July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009

who needs to be thanked

layout by theboydisturbed


심장병 heartache.

My heart hurts… it hurts so much…
More I feel, my heart gets worn out…

Yo, Don’t hold back the person who’s ready to leave
The journey ending with my lonely feelings hiding behind my heart
Straying away from road of love, I’ve found myself being discarded by the levies of love
Me muttering my confession as if it’s a surgery
You may not understand, but I still love you
If we can’t be beside each other, I will just leave
Willing to do anything, now I will get going…
Can no longer bear to look, you’ve confined me in a cage
Blood pouring down; the sadness, happiness, those feelings we’ve shared…
I can no longer bear to look, while I am still breathing
It would be better if I forget, so please stop this nonsense
The scar only getting deeper as it is watered
Your voice and breath
That long hair and its scent, everything all tangled
And mixed with desiredness
You’ve waited long enough, but I’ve forgotten you

My heart hurts… it hurts so much…
More I feel, my heart gets worn out…

I sometimes held back my tears as I saw your face
I sometimes closed my eyes and prayed as I panicked that you might be gone
As I wake from sleep, I’ve poked you and called your name as well…
If wasn’t enough I also bit you softly as well…
I was relieved as I heard your whimper…
Then as I stared at you, I held back my tears…
And as I stared at you, I sometimes held back my desiredness,,,
If you leave from my side, I’ve thought that
I would follow you to the end of the world…
You don’t have to try to confine me, when I look at the branded image of you in my heart
Even if you don’t try to be similar, when I look at you
Your existence, which co-exists with my love
The love which brightens my path
The wind softly soaking the dry soul
If walking through this path means
Throwing away all of my happiness
Then I’d rather rest beside you
Tears bursting and now I really miss you,
I may try to forget, but I can’t forget

If the world stops and if my heart stops again
By then, perhaps we will end this

It’s not familiar no matter how I try
I know, it’s not familiar
Live within my heart, just live within my heart
Then it’s okay even if I leave you

Yo~ I am the one who’s going to forget you, so stop this nonsense
The sadness, happiness, those feelings we’ve shared…

Firstly, I loved her more than anyone else
Secondly, I loved myself more then her…

I am the one who’s going to forget you, so stop this nonsense
The sadness, happiness, those feelings we’ve shared…

All of sudden, the feeling of “love” has disappeared
Now I’ve finally realized that I have left your side…